So I've pretty much learned what a true friend is and true friend isn't... the latter are people who one day are your best friend you talk to them, feel comfortable confiding your deepest skeletons and secrets, and then the next day they completely ignore you and just brush you off as if you barely know them. I don't mean the ones who you can confide in and then they barely say anything to you the next day... but the ones who just are best friends one day, and then don't even aknowledge your presence the next... I just feel disposable around this one person, it's not anyone who reads my posts otherwise I wouldn't be writing this lol... it just feels high-schoolish.. I admire people who are open and honest, if you don't want to associate, just say so.. it's a communication technique Adi once taught us, not acknowledging presence is worse than saying something nasty... in the latter you're at least giving the person the time of day.

Thank god Spring Break is two weeks away, Tucson for 8 nights and days... it's going to be a wonderful time.

My favorite quote in a while:

"One of our talmudic Rabbis declared that the world rests on three foundations- justice, truth and peace. Out of the the first, the other two emerge. If we deal justly with other people, truth will triumph and peace will reign"
-Rabbi Morris N. Kertzer

I'm enjoying life at the moment, I'm happy in my faith, relationship, friendships, politics, school... not everything is going perfect, but flawed and good keeps things interesting

rock on.

sitting on the couch at home... been a relaxing day... very relaxing... here's a survey I stole from Beth's sister...

1. Initials:
JBC... yeah I used to think JC Penney's was named after me

2. I say Shotgun! You say?
Who cares... I'm driving anyway

3. Last person you hugged?
Mom

4. Why are you still up?
Because it's only about 8:35 at night

5. Who made you angry today?
not really angry... mom made me irritated she has laryngitis and she kept on talking and getting worse

6. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?
If by personally you mean for me and a couple thousand other rabid fans, then I could say U2 played for me when Jackie and I were on the floor about 10 feet from the stage

7. Do you love anyone?
Yes... Jackie

8. Do you like Bush?
the band- yes, the president- wish he'd just shoot himself to put our country out of it's misery

9. Have you ever bungee jumped?
I've thought about it... but not seriously

10. Have you ever gone white-water rafting?
(see #9)

11. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?
Yeah I think so

12. How much money ya got?
I haven't looked lately

13. Have you met a real redneck?
I go to school in Charlotte... ask me how many

14. How is the weather right now?
clear and warm-ish

15. What are you listening to right now?
Third Eye Blind- "Eyes for You"

16. What is your current fav song?
Why is this question always asked... I don't freaking know!!!!!!!

17. What was the last full movie you watched?
Spies Like Us- imagine Naked Gun with Chevy Chase and Dan Aykroyd instead of Leslie Nielsen

18. Do you wear contacts?
Nope

19. Where was the last place you went besides your house?
Barnes&Noble

20. What are you afraid of?
certain things

21. How many piercings and tattoos do you have?
None

22. Have you ever loved someone?
If, yes and still do, counts... see #7

23. Have you ever fired a gun?
water guns, and shooting arcade guns

24. Are you missing someone?
A couple people yeah

25. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celeb?
Oh yeah... I get told regularly that I look like Christopher Reeve, Superman era... http://imdb.com/gallery/mptv/1318/Mptv/1318/1202_0031.jpg

26. Who would you like to see right now?
a couple people

27. Favorite movie of all time?
Airplane!

28. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't suppose to?
yeah

29. Favorite flower?
got a couple favs... don't know their names

30. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn?
A little butter and I'm all set

31. What Magazines are you reading?
Working on a book right now actually

32. Have you ever ridden in a limo?
Not stretch... but I've had a hired car service from an airport a couple times that was called a limo, even though it was just a sedan

33. Do you like Michael Jackson?
when I was younger I once asked my mom if all black people turn white... does that answer the question?

34. Favorite cereal:
hmm... got a few, but cinammon toast crunch has a sentemential appeal to me

35. Do you drive:
yes and better than most people

36. Last time you went bowling?
ooh.. back over the summer

37. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
have on a couple of flights, but not really anywhere weird

38. Who was your last phone call?
Jackie last night

39. How do you feel about Hot Dogs?
love em... half ketchup half mustard... or just spicy mustard, although I am developing the taste for the Carolina style- mustard, cole slaw and chili

40. Favorite Movie Line?
"I just want to tell you both good luck, we're all counting on you"- Leslie Nielsen in Airplane!... it's one of my mottos in life:)

Sometimes things happen that just make me wonder if I've jumped in over my head in some situations, like taking 3 ULTRA-hard courses this semester... just stressing over knowing what I have due within the next 2 weeks, culminating with the GRE on Dec 9, and then back home on Dec 12. I've discovered that I really like West Hartford, yeah I've complained about it before so before you think "Jeremy?!" I mean it's home for me, this is where I grew up, it's the place I feel most comfortable more or less... so I guess you can take Jeremy out of West Hartford, but you can't take the West Hartford out of Jeremy. Sigh... knowing it's back to Charlotte tomorrow, but then I'm back here in about two weeks, for a break of 3 weeks... ironic isn't it... the time between Thanksgiving and Winter Break is shorter than I'll be home for Winter Break.. and then of course it's barely 2 months till Spring Break which will see mom, dad, and I winging out to Tucson... something I'm already looking forward to, and maybe too much:) I don't want to rush the year thinking ahead... but it's my second home, and I can't wait to get back... Yet back to jumping in over my head there's other stuff too... that needn't much detail here lol. Anyway on to the second part of my usual pondering type post... album review! Robyn Hitchcock and the Venus 3- "Ole! Tarantula". Hitchcock has been making music since the 70s, and was a big folky artist out of London in the 80s. The Venus 3 are none other than Peter Buck guitarist in R.E.M., and Bill Rieflin and Scott McCaughey both are touring members of R.E.M. and are members of the Minus 5. The sound is really cool, they know how to rock out (folky-roots type) but then write some really fun songs like "Belltown Ramble"... looking forward to this one staying in the rotation for a while!

Shalom.

There's some days when I'm so confused, not about anything specifically... just about my place in the community, how people view me, etc... I don't know whether it's just from exhaustion or anything else... it's just something that I was pondering when I was sitting in one of the comfy chairs in front of Jazzman's listening to Army of Anyone on my iPod (an awesome album by the way: Robert and Dean Deleo (formerly of Stone Temple Pilots), Richard Patrick (lead singer in Filter), and Ray Luzier (session drummer who's worked with -of all people- David Lee Roth), eating lunch, and just gazing out across the courtyard. This year's been interesting so far I've grown closer to some people, and more distant from others (not by choice, just differing schedules and lives).. sometimes I wish I can go back to Freshman/Sophomore year and relive the fun/spontaneous times, and not be holed up in my room doing homework as it seems now, perpetually. That's what I miss, the spontenaity of early college life, when one did have free time to just do whatever, and not have 20 meetings, 15 classes, and a job all to balance... all the while keeping in contact with parents, planning for grad school, and planning my future. I guess all I can say is thank god Thanksgiving Break is here... I don't even think I really know how bad my body/mind/soul needs it...

Shalom.

I am now a palindrome... 22... and the only thing I can't legally do now is rent a car... most rental places require you to be 24 I think. It's also the first day of classes... whoo... want to get into the fall groove... yeah

PRESENT
01. is your hair wet? no
02. is your cell phone right beside you? no... it's near my bed which is across the room
03. do you miss someone? yup
04. are you wearing makeup: no
05. are you wearing chapstick: nope... used some last week though
06. are you cold: quite comfortable actually
07. are you tired: currently in that state of I'm up but not awake yet
08. are you excited: about going home on friday yes!
09. are you watching t.v: not at the moment
10. are you wearing pajamas: nope

PAST
01. recently done anything you regret: i think we all have
02. ever lied: yes
04. ever kick someone: not purposely
05. ever trip over your own feet?: yep
06. ever cried so hard you almost threw up: nope... but have come close

TODAY
01. have you cursed: yes
02. have you yelled at someone: nope
03. have you gotten mad at someone: gotten kinda confused
04. have you cried: no
05. have you called more than 3 people: no
06. have you im'd more than 3 people: no

Q 01: is there a person who is on your mind right now?
A 01: yeah.. couple of people to be honest

Q 02: where is the last place you went?
A 02: bathroom when i woke up

Q 03: who is the last person you called?
A 03: jackie

Q 04: who do you like more, your mom or dad?
A 04: they're equal in my mind

Q 05: do you have any siblings?
A 05: only child:)

Q 06: do you smile often?
A 06: when it's appropriate.. which if you ask some people about me, would say that's often

Q 07: do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
A 07: pretty sure of it

Q 08: do you wish on stars?
A 08: hey... i vaguely remember doing this survey before and saying that it would probably burn

Q 09: do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
A 09: no... and then i kick myself when I realize they're too tight to just put back on, kind of defeating the whole purpose

Q 10: when did you last cry?
A 10: the day before we left Tucson on our last trip (last spring break)

Q 11: do you like your handwriting?
A 11: sometimes it's messy... but more legible than some

Q 12: are you a friendly person?
A 12: I try to be

Q 13: who's bed did you sleep in last night?
A 13: it's mine... but technically owned by Queens I would guess

Q 14: what color shirt are you wearing?
A 14: brown

Q 15: do you have any pets?
A 15: not at the moment

Q 16: what is the color of your bed?
A 16: green and red plaid sheets, blue mattress, and brown wood frame.... wow that's specific

Q 17: what were you doing at 9 last night?
A 17: Starbucks hanging out with Ben and talking to Hannah on the phone

Q 18: I can't wait until...
A 18: Friday afternoon when I fly home

Q 19: is tom on your friends list?
A 19: Since I don't have myspace anymore no.

Q 20: look to your right. what's there?
A 20: the wall

Q 22: ever cried yourself to sleep?
A 22: not that I remember, I'm sure I have though

Q 23: ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
A 23: not that i remember

Q 24: song that makes you cry?
A 24: there's a few

Q 25: are you normally a happy person?
A 25: yeah

Q 26: is your self-esteem extremely low?
A 26: nah... pretty high actually

Q 27: current music?
A 27: Smashing Pumpkins song 'Real Love' is in my head

At internship transcribing a journal from the 1770s (really cool stuff) and there's a person named Zeb that's written about

Oh how the meaning changes over time... sitting at my internship looking through a folder of Charlotte city government documents from the 1860s, and I just came across this line "(payment for) 10 days work on hoes"... yeah... we're dirty in 2006.

oh and quickly, Cheap Trick's new album "Rockford" is awesome... get it.

for some reason I'm into updating my online stuff tonight... call it boredom or something... facebook and now this. I have Sugar We're Going Down by Fall Out Boy stuck in my head... although I found the cure to getting a song out of my head is to listen to it, or just go play it on guitar... so maybe i'll do that. this summer's been interesting so far... parties in the know, know... parties not in the know... yeah... I'm being cryptic... because that's what i do:P

Have a great internship up at the Charlotte Museum of History, which is understandably overshadowed by the Levine Museum of the New South; but my museum is a great place. Basically they've had too many donations and not enough people to look through the stuff, so my job is to help with donations being cataloged, described, and prepped to be put in exhibits if need be... most people would probably find what I'm doing really boring, but a lot of the donations are politically related, and it's history... I really lucked out with it, and I wouldn't trade it for anything. I want it to be my job lol. Been looking at grad schools lately, have some prospectives... really excited because Arizona State in Phoenix has a history program with a political focus... it's my fav state, and what I have to Master in... so it's my top pick right now.

Had a strange musically related dream last night, i was at a Third Eye Blind concert, but they were playing DOA by the Foo Fighters.

Off to get this damn Fall Out Boy song out of my head.

rock on.

So in my last entry I was talking about the new Goo Goo Dolls and Pearl Jam albums... but I've got a 3rd album thats getting me through finals... The Raconteurs "Broken Boy Soldiers"... they're a side project for Jack White of the White Stripes... and I like WS quite a bit, but The Raconteurs are a slice of rock n roll a la the 70s when rock was good! Straight forward guitar parts and awesome solos... they're kinda like Billy Corgan's failed side project Zwan in that they rock hard and have 2 really talented guitarists who aren't afraid to show off... mmm... so good. Oh btw I got the date wrong on the Pearl Jam album, it comes out next week I think.

Now that its the end of the semester we all need some new music to help us through finals week... I got 2 albums for ya'll... they come out tomorrow and I'll be up to get both... of course I have downloaded them already but the quality lacks... so yeah...

1) Goo Goo Dolls "Let Love In"- they've stepped away from Iris and expanded upon what made Gutterflower great... bit anthems, emotional lyrics, and it's just a damn good album. All the songs are big rock songs... even the ballad at the end 'Become' is a full band song... included is their cover of 'Give a Little Bit' that was on a soundtrack last year. They've come under the radar with this album and it's a good one.

2) Pearl Jam "Pearl Jam" (self titled)- downloaded this one a couple days ago... 12 of the 13 songs are straight forward rock allowing guitarists Mike Mcreedy and Stone Gossard to show off.. in other words... it's good:) Eddie Vedder does what he does best... and yeah... it's good. It doesn't have any weird songs like Bianural did.. it's just a step back to their earlier days of plain rock and roll from the last remaining Seattle-era band.

MLB Gameday Audio is a lifesaver... $15 for the whole season, able to listen to my Yankees games all season while I'm here in Charlotte over their website... yeah.. It's a good feeling.

Random bits...

-had a wonderful spring break out in Tucson with the parents.. it was really all I could have hoped for and wanted... good times with mom and dad, golf, sun, food, shopping... and awesome weather

-on the flight from Tucson-Dallas our pilots were Gilligan and the Real McCoy... literally, the pilot's name was Randy McCoy, and the copilot's name was Bob Denver. Getting off the plane I saw the copilot and he actually resembled the real (and late) Bob Denver.

-i hate Charlotte... I don't belong here, and I'm glad I have a just a little over a year left here. I feel out of place in this city... the pace here is just too slow... i can't stand it... i guess there's some things I will never understand...

-I'm giving a big kick to soda and espresso, I need to get off the reliance caffeine

-My career goals have morphed a bit so to speak... I had been interested in political journalism, but I've had a lifelong passion for history... so I'm really looking into political history as a goal... journalism interested me... but I've simply lost that passion... and my mindset has really changed now that I've changed my focus... and I'm simply happier now.. someday I'd love to work in the research department at a museum or something like that..

-Have an internship lined up working in the archives department at the Charlotte Museum of History.. fitting isn't it:) as such I will surely be here this summer... probably won't take any courses unless there's something really relevant

-Been looking into Grad schools a bit... my top picks right now are the University of Michigan at Flint, and the University of Colorado at Denver

On to hw. peace.

A - Accent: Not really... occasionally I throw in a little New Yawk accent to represent...

B - Breakfast Item: When I splurge on vacation in Maine: Maine Blueberry Waffles/Pancakes, toast and homefries... oh good times

C - Chore you hate: raking leaves

D - Dad's Name: Stephen

E - Essential everyday item: music

F - Flavor ice cream: Chocolate Chip Cookie dough

G - Gold or Silver?: Silver... (see my promise ring from Jackie)

H - Hometown: West Hartford, CT... ugh

I - Insomnia: Occasionally... lately I haven't been sleeping solidly but not really full insomnia

J - Job Title: Barista and/or Student

K - Kids: Eventually

L - Living arrangements: Comfortable, not pretentious.. I know that much

M - Mom's birthplace: Hartford, CT

N - Number of lovers you've had: 1- Jackie

O - Overnight hospital stays: none.. except you count when I was born

P - Phobia: I'll get back to you on that

Q - Queer: Eye for the Straight Guy?

R - Religious Affiliation: half Jewish (mom), half Catholic (dad)

S - Siblings: Only Child.. no I wasn't spoiled nor hated not having a sibling.. I enjoyed it quite a bit thank you.

T - Time you wake up: 9am on MWF, 8:30 Tues/Thurs, changes on weekends if I'm working early or not

U - Unnatural hair colors you've had: never dyed my hair or anything

V - Vegetable you refuse to eat: certain types of fish

W - Worst habit: procrastination and paranoia

X - X-rays you've had: right ankle when I broke it, and teeth every few years of course

Y - Yummy: Lot of stuff... Luigi's Lemon Italian Ice that I'm eating right now for one

Z - Zodiac sign: Leirgo (born day Aug 23, day it changes from Leo to Virgo)

At times like these there's only a few things I can turn to... Yesterday my Great-Aunt Mary passed away at 95, she was the only female blood relative my grandfather (mom's side) had in the US when he came over in the 1930s, Mary with Uncle Charlie raised him and showed Grandpa the ropes in the US, he's pretty upset but pretty chatty, called him earlier to with sympathy. Yesterday the Mother of the Civil Rights Movement, Coretta Scott King passed away at 78, I was in Mrs. King's presence only a couple of months ago, she and the rest of the King family were at the U2 concert I went to in Atlanta.

Those things... friends... and U2

Alito has been confirmed... 10-8 along party lines... hmm doesn't that say anything?
http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2006/01/24/AR2006012400193.html?referrer=email

Although impeachment hearings for Bush rumored to be possibly set to begin in February...
http://www.insightmag.com/Media/MediaManager/impeachment.htm

Time for a good old fashioned tell-you-about-my-weekend-and-such post... where to start... it's been interesting.

Friday was a good day, Jackie and I went to Target and bought some stuff for my room- new towels, and a small shelf unit to act as a pantry... it looks good... helps sort out what I have for food and stuff, instead of sticking it all in the bottom drawer of my nightstand/bureau. Went to Mama Fus for dinner, service sucked, their computer was down that transfers orders from the register to the kitchen, so they had to do it manually and peoples orders were wrong all over the place... which in the end really doesn't say much for the people who work the registers and the cooks attempting to read orders.. whatever... I got my food, but Jackie's food and our appetizer was no where to be seen... our server came over about 10 minutes later asking if we were missing something... uh yeah. They were apologetic, but they still weren't really making any extra effort given the situation. After all of that we got caught in the nasty rains that came around 8pm on Friday... not fun. Went to Borders, I got a cd the band Living Things, pretty good, but not as good as the reviews say, its good straight ahead hard rock, but their single is probably the best song on it... boo. Also got a magazine "Science of the Mind" a spiritual magazine that I would have never picked up if not for the cover article "2005 Spiritual Hero of the Year: Bono" Made a good read... talked about his religious side and how his faith directs some of his work... but then has to blatantly mentions that he drinks and partys and such.. yeah... it is a spiritual magazine. Came back to campus and hung out for a while before Jackie left for home.

Saturday was ok. Slept like 10 hours- 2am till about 12pm, got lunch, and by that time it was time to get ready for work. Worked a short mid shift.. 2:15-6:15pm, wound up being till 6:30, we were really busy all day so I stayed a bit after to help clean and make the store pretty for the closing shifts. Good timing thought, as soon as I got off, the womans basketball game was in half time, so I was able to sneek in and hang out with Jackie and drumline for the break and then the second half. Left right before the guys game, back to the room, ate dinner and got ready for bed. Why to bed so early? Well... Jeremy had to open the next morning at work 4:45am!!! Was all good though.. in bed by 9, watched some tv, talked to Jackie on her ride home from the game, and asleep by 11, hours of sleep was sufficient, given the 10 hours the night before lol.

Sunday... woke up at the ungodly hour of 4am to be at the store at 4:45am. Shift started smoothly enough.. can proudly say I had the first drink of East Blvd that day... had a triple grande soy black and white mocha in my hand by 5am so it was all good:) Had a rush from 6-6:30, lots of people getting off 3rd Shift at Carolina's Medical Center. Shift went well overall.. went quickly.. our 8-4pm midshifter called out (she was looking pretty ill on saturday so I'm not too surprised) so we were short a person all day.. but it was ok.. we got busy but the 3 of us: me, Jennifer, Elissa.. 3 of the most veteran employees there, handled it smoothly. Elissa and I have been with Starbucks for about 4 years, Jennifer's been around for a loooong time, mid 1990s I think. Eventually 1:15pm rolled around I headed out. Rested for a few hours and then met up with Jackie for church... yes my readers, you're favorite non-practicing half Jewish-half Catholic went to church! She and I were originally going to meet after mass to go to dinner and hang out, but then she asked and I decided to join her at mass. Was interesting.. and I now have this craving to go to Synagogue one of these Sundays. Went to Frank&Steins for dinner... good little place in the Stonecrest Plaza, kind of a Nathan's ripoff.. but pretty good nonetheless. Went to Borders and looked at some Grad school and scholarship books; got another cd, this one a lot better.. the band We Are Scientists, the best way to describe them- more rudimentary version of The Killers, or a less dancy version of Franz Ferdinand. But either way its a good cd.. and they ripped off a drum pattern from U2 for one song so of course that made me smile sheepishly. Went to bed around midnight.. and woke up around 8 this morning.. have some laundry going right now.. about to head out for some errands- Teeter, Borders to get the new Dave Barry book:) and some other things. Work 5-close tonight.. need to fit homework in there of course.

rock on.

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